March 2009
13 posts
2-11-09 An end
Change is good. Embrace it…with open arms. I am closing this chapter and starting a new one. What is in store for me? We shall see. I cried the other day. I was packing my things. It hit me unexpectedly. I merely looked above my cabinets to get the decorations down and stopped dead in my tracks. Very odd feeling washed over me and it made me start thinking about this closure I am...
1-19-09 Permanent
Is this the moment where I look you in the eye? Forgive my broken promise that you..ll never see me cry And everything It will surely change Even if I tell you I won..t go away today Will you think that you..re all alone When no one..s there to hold your hand? And all you know seems so far away And everything is temporary Rest your head I..m permanent I know he..s living in hell Every single day...
1-6-09 New Year
2009! CRAZY! However, I am so very ready! Another chance for change, growth, health, love, happiness, peace, etc…and out with toxic, draining, negativity, games, lies, sadness, war etc.
A quick recap is in order I think…
Jan 08-was kind of quiet…but it picked up for sure!
Feb-my sister & Mike moved into their house surprised everyone by having the moving done already...
11-21-08 Dreams v.s. Nightmares?
ok…I truly would like to meet someone that knows what the heck our dreams are supposed to mean…do they exist? I mean REALLY exist? How can we be sure that they know what MY dreams mean?
I had 2 very opposite and confusing dreams last night. I usually have a few a month that I remember. Some I can still remember. Some easily forgotten. Some that just stick with me for a little...
11-8-08 How about you?
What do YOU want/need? Do you know how to get it?
Don’t be afraid to ask for what you want. Don’t be afraid to say what you feel or need. Don’t be afraid to stand up for yourself or speak your mind. Don’t be afraid to admit when you were wrong either. I have learned however, that in order to not be afraid and do these things, we have to feel safe to do so. Whoever...
10-29-08 Differences
Constantly a work in process we are, right?
If I do not want what you want, please try not to tell me that my want is wrong.
Or if I believe other than you, at least pause before you correct my view.
Or if my emotion is less than yours, or more, given the same circumstances, try not to ask me to feel more strongly or weakly.
Or yet if I act, or fail to act, in the manner of your design for...
10-24-08 Hand Appetizer
I have been meaning to post this all week and keep forgetting until I tell someone else about it. The cutest little 4 year old boy EVER was in the store last weekend. I was done with my shift and was getting a few things and he was in line behind me. His mom was at the cashier next to me. She got finished and looked at him and said “I am finished now do you want to come over to this...
10-18-08 It's all about the doodlebug!
YES I am posting a Happy birthday message to my other dog now! =) It wouldn’t be fair if I only did for Mia. Today Baxter is 7 years old! He is my little snuggler and I love his puppy pictures! I really cannot get over how fast time flies! I have a lot of fun with my dogs despite the bills and headache they cause me sometimes. I love them!
10-14-08 Reason, Season, Lifetime
People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime. When you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that person. When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually. They may seem like a...
10-14-08 Ok, I feel old now...
…HAPPY BIRTHDAY to my Mia girl! She is going to be 11 years old tomorrow! She is my little trooper! She has always been totally ok with whatever we are doing, just as long as she is with me. She has been through a lot with me, let me tell ya! I love her! Now if she could only read….
10-5-08 Try my cloud out!
Try my cloud out!
Do you realize how much negativity there is in the world? I mean really, seriously think about it for a minute. It actually saddens me. Don’t get me wrong, I have my moments, I am NOT perfect. However, I thrive on being happy. I CHOOSE happiness and being positive. My address IS Cloud 9 and you are all welcome over anytime!
Over the last year or so, it has been a...
9-25-08 He...
He…
…looks at me across a crowded room and our eyes meet and we smile.
…helps me teach our children how to become wonderful people.
…takes care of me when I am sick.
…looks forward to playing Santa with me for the kids on Christmas Eve.
…enjoys a family outing going out to pick out our Christmas tree and cut it down.
…remembers at the right time when I least expect it to surprise me when I...
Transferring blogs
I want to apologize now for the massive amount of posting about to occur. I would like to have this blog be my archive and I should have been posting here instead of Myspace or both…but whatever. So, the title of the posts include the dates they were done. I promise to be more faithful to the blog my sister built for me. Thanks for following me!
September 2008
2 posts
Roller coaster ride anyone?
Life sure is full of twists and turns….some good, some bad, some happy, some sad…. *Have become good friends with Star since she came in as a customer into BBW.=) *Losing weight, slowly but surely…feels good! Finally off that dang plateau.=) *Have become close friends with girls at work(both jobs) this summer.=) *Lost an old co-worker just before labor day…younger than me...
I have my own song now...
my co-worker/friend Natalia wrote me a song yesterday. I love it! We are still trying to work out the music for it, but give us some time.
She walks around counting her thoughts
She’s a tough girl making her demands with everything she fought
Punching the way through making her day
Waiting for the freedom on a Friday
Serious Jen when she’s not joking around
Getting the bills...
August 2008
7 posts
“Take all of your wasted honor
Every little past frustration
Take all of your...”
Too long...
I have been meaning to post and that be more regular with my postings. However, life has been crazy busy for me. It is weird.
Happenings since I last posted…
Had some stress over getting my license renewed, but that has worked out finally.
Had my 34th birthday. I typically don’t feel *older* as people always ask on your birthday, but this year I really did feel older I have to...
July 2008
5 posts
YUM!
Just about to sink my teeth into a yum-o sandwhich! I am SO loving my george grill! Last night I had a pork chop on it, and tonight a turkey, bacon, swiss panini with honey mustard!
Then, after I savor my sandwhich I must find my copy of my birth certificate so that I can go renew my license tomorrow am. It wasn’t in the safe where it should be, so I have one other idea of where it is. ...
Revelation!
ok, so I was just in bed and trying to decide whether or not I need to take an ativan to shut my brain off so that I can go to sleep as reading didn’t seem to help. I started crying going through things in my head stressing more about things and just ended up in a vicious circle. Sadly, this is not an uncommon bedtime ritual for me. Who can I call to talk about it? Nobody. =( Everyone...
Early birthday goodie!
Yeah for me! I am SO excited! I went walking with the girls and my dogs last night again Carrie gave me my present early. It is a George Foreman grill!!!! I am so happy I finally have one! I think I will be using it like every night I am so excited. Also, Joleine gave me last weekend her old digital camera so now I am not so technology challenged anymore and will actually be able to take pics and...
I'm Back!
I am seriously going to try to start posting something every day. I don’t have anyone to vent/talk to about my day/life when I get home from work, so here it is. =) It seems this day and age nobody has time to talk on the phone anymore. It is weird to me. I really despise that our world is becoming less social. It is healthy to talk about it and not keep it inside to fester. It helps that I...