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10-5-08 Try my cloud out!

Try my cloud out!

Do you realize how much negativity there is in the world?  I mean really, seriously think about it for a minute.  It actually saddens me.  Don’t get me wrong, I have my moments, I am NOT perfect.  However, I thrive on being happy.  I CHOOSE happiness and being positive.  My address IS Cloud 9 and you are all welcome over anytime! 

Over the last year or so, it has been a work in process to literally catch myself engaging in a negative thought.  It actually is really cool and fun to acknowledge it myself and then flip it around.  But like I said…a work in process…caught myself today.  Am I totally contradicting myself with blog even?  I don’t feel negative right now, but by writing this, am I giving more power to “it”.    I overanalyze things too much sometimes.  Another piece of me that is a work in progress.

The saying “misery loves company”, could not be more true.  The reason I say that is because even if you float through life with rainbows and butterflies flying above your head, the negative still have a little bit of power.  This only angers me.  I think it interesting how you could have the best day going and one tiny little thing changes the rest of it for you.  Why is that?  90% happy and that small 10% totally obliterated the other portion?  HOW DOES THIS HAPPEN?  In all logical sense the 90% should win?!

Offering a seat to someone else that needs it more than you?  Do you?

Hold the door open for a perfect stranger?  Do they for you?  Do you thank them?

Asking how someone is doing…do you mean it?

Can I get you anything?  What do you need?

Have you ever complimented someone you didn’t know on something?

When you tell someone I love you, do you mean it or has it become just something you are supposed to say?

Do you complete surveys or talk to a manger about service you received for the good as much as the bad?

When you give someone something, is it so that you get something out of it?

So many people are just out to get something free, so they use.  They use whatever or whoever so that they can get something in return.  If that doesn’t work, they will go even further.  Perhaps sue someone for everything and more.

Much like people starving in this world, obviously on a smaller scale, but is it?  If more people were happy, would there be as many starving people?  That is where it is up to us.  I have noticed that the power of one is stronger.  When we are happy—only good can flow from us.  The more we put out there, the more we get back.  I am sure some if not all of you have heard me say that I do not allow myself to get depressed.  It is true.  If I feel like I am in a funk, I reach out.  I want to get out of the house.  I want to do something, even if it is to go for a walk.  I want to laugh or have a serious conversation with someone.  Anything to break that negative feeling of depression.  If nobody else is there, then only I can do it.  There is only me.  It shouldn’t be this way.  Everyone should have someone that they KNOW without a doubt that they could call at 2am and that person would pick up the phone.  So, I think there should be a code phrase that everyone knows, like 911.  Everyone knows that that is serious.  No questions asked.  So, I am here to tell each and everyone of you that I am that person should you need to call at 2 am or whenever.  Just tell me “I need you” and I will make myself available.  If you don’t already have my number, then email me and you will have it.

I better end this or I could go on all night.

Seriously though….think about it….because YOU are the only one that has the power to help you.  Everyone else is your support through it.  You have to be true to your integrity of who you are and that is what will shine from your light within.  Truth always wins.

9-25-08 He…

He…

…looks at me across a crowded room and our eyes meet and we smile.

…helps me teach our children how to become wonderful people.

…takes care of me when I am sick.

…looks forward to playing Santa with me for the kids on Christmas Eve.

…enjoys a family outing going out to pick out our Christmas tree and cut it down.

…remembers at the right time when I least expect it to surprise me when I have said

    “Oh I wish/want this or that” or “wouldn’t it be nice if we had one of those” etc.

…gives the best massages.

…is found out in the garage tinkering on a project or fixing one of the kids’ toys.

…is very serious when he needs to be but can make me laugh like nobody else.

…wipes away my tears.

…is never rude, disrespectful, cruel, or hurtful.

…enjoys being outdoors.

…craves knowledge, family time, and our time alone.

…is damn sexy to me.

…watches me as I am sleeping.

…has a passion with me that cannot be stopped.

…is affectionate in front of everyone, including the kids.

…scrapes my windows for me on an icy morning.

…calls just to say he loves me or needed to hear my voice.

…shows an interest and cares about my friends and family as well as his own.

…sends or brings home flowers just because.

…wants never to let me go once he has me in his arms.

…kisses like nobody’s business.

…enjoys a game, dinner, or movie with friends once in awhile.

…gets up with the kids in the middle of the night to let me sleep when I really need it.

…walks with me and is proud to have me next to him.

…enjoys our endless conversations about nothing and everything.

…is not selfish and takes nobody for granted.

…surprises me at work for a lunch date, just because.

…makes me get lost when I look into his eyes.

…blushes when I get school girl googly-eyed over him.

…believes that a variety of music is a must in life.

…makes me blush.

…has a glass of wine and dinner waiting for me when I get home on occasion.

…makes sure my gas tank is not on empty when done using my car.

…helps a stray animal find its way home.

…keeps the home fires burning and makes the biggest campfires ever.

…asks what he can do to help if I am preoccupied with something.

…never forgets a birthday, our anniversary, or holiday.

…brags about me to his friends and family.

…wants the kind of love that movies and songs are made for.

…is respectful, polite, flirty, courteous, responsible, and doesn’t care who knows it.

…cuddles on the couch with me while we watch a movie or just want to have quiet time.

…doesn’t mind when I say “Hunny, can you reach that for me please?”

…he is not shallow.

…enjoys his guy time and agrees that my girl time is important too.

…is my ultimate protector.

…will wake me gently if I fall asleep on the couch and it is time for bed.

…will happily kill spiders and just shakes his head at how ridiculous I am to be afraid.

…holds me closer for scary movies.

…watches a chick flick with me as I will watch guy movies with him.

…loves sports.

…calls me baby.

…cradles my face in his hands when he kisses me.

…can’t wait to tell me about his day or let me rescue him from a bad one.

…loves surprises and loves to surprise others.

…is positive, believes in being proactive, & doesn’t dwell on things he cannot change.

…believes that it takes work to have a healthy relationship.

…doesn’t believe in going to bed angry.

…is honest, reliable, attentive, & has a big heart.

…does not do drugs.

…loves life and embraces each new day as another chance to do good.

…remembers to be grateful.

…appreciates a deep conversation once in awhile.

…is not afraid to say “I am sorry.”

…laughs when I am silly.

…understands my secret crush on Matthew McConaughey.

…likes candles.

…can’t wait to come home to me and our life at the end of the day.

…doesn’t like to complain.

…believes that he is in charge of the choices he makes in life.

…can appreciate a good joke.

…is not the jealous type.

…loves how excited I get over snow and silly little things that make me happy.

…will dance with me.

…loves the beach.

…knows how important it is to cherish the ones you love.

…makes me happy to call him mine.

…is a big kid at heart.

…gets touched by the little/simple things in life.

…is waiting for me to find him.

…and maybe just a few more things that I have forgotten at the moment…………..

…will lay with me in the grass to watch the clouds roll by or star gaze.

…will wake me to join him & watch the sun rise.

…will happily engage in a water fight while washing our cars.

…knows how to prepare my cup of coffee just right.

…can ask me anything.

…is the bravest man I know.

…can think of nobody else he wants to spend his life with.

…knows just what I need or what I might be thinking—sometimes before I may know.

…isn’t ashamed to share his fears, dreams, secrets, doubts, or plans with me.

…pulls me back to him for one more kiss.

…is comfortable telling me what his heart is feeling exposing that soft side of him because he knows that he is safe with me.

…understands the passion felt in a good song.

…asks me how I am.

…agreess that the honeymoon stage is never over.

…truly needs me.

…would jump into a big pile of leaves even if it means the pile just got messed up.

…can hop in the car and take a road trip anywhere, or plan something ahead of time.

…isn’t afraid to ask for or protect what is his.

…has no doubt that he means the world to me.

Transferring blogs

I want to apologize now for the massive amount of posting about to occur. I would like to have this blog be my archive and I should have been posting here instead of Myspace or both…but whatever. So, the title of the posts include the dates they were done. I promise to be more faithful to the blog my sister built for me. Thanks for following me!

Roller coaster ride anyone?

Life sure is full of twists and turns….some good, some bad, some happy, some sad….
*Have become good friends with Star since she came in as a customer into BBW.
=)
*Losing weight, slowly but surely…feels good! Finally off that dang plateau.
=)
*Have become close friends with girls at work(both jobs) this summer.
=)
*Lost an old co-worker just before labor day…younger than me very sad.
=(
*Dated a loser for almost a month…glad that part of my life is over.
=}
*My sister bought our tickets today to see Jeff Dunham in November…CAN’T WAIT! =)
*Just found out tonight that another co-worker from the same job died last night. Weird connection is he was with the previous mentioned above co-worker when he passed.
=(
*Found out today Baxter will be ok….no signs of cancer, calcium level came back lower than last time.
=)
*Andrea goes back to K Falls for school in a little over a week! =( Will miss her!

Back I go to my chores.

I have my own song now…

my co-worker/friend Natalia wrote me a song yesterday.  I love it!  We are still trying to work out the music for it, but give us some time.

  She walks around counting her thoughts

   She’s a tough girl making her demands with everything she fought

   Punching the way through making her day

   Waiting for the freedom on a Friday

  Serious Jen when she’s not joking around

  Getting the bills paid, laughing without a sound

  Serious Jen got to the point with her handy pen

  I’m gonna count to the number ten.

  She’s so S-S-S-Serious

  She’s so S-S-S-Serious

  She’s so S-S-S-Serious Jen

  Hiding the Tiki, she’s so clever

  Flow of water, makes you wanna pull the lever

  Bringing down the house, full of sass

  She’s like Blondie, heart of glass

  Serious Jen when she’s not joking around

  Getting the bills paid, laughing without a sound

  Serious Jen got to the point with her handy pen

  I’m gonna count to the number ten.

  She’s so S-S-S-Serious

  She’s so S-S-S-Serious

  She’s so S-S-S-Serious Jen