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2-11-09 An end

Sat, 14 Mar 2009 02:27:04 -0400

Change is good. Embrace it…with open arms. I am closing this chapter and starting a new one. What is in store for me? We shall see.
I cried the other day. I was packing my things. It hit me unexpectedly. I merely looked above my cabinets to get the decorations down and stopped dead in my tracks. Very odd feeling washed over me and it made me start thinking about this closure I am facing. I have been here a little over 2 years and have grown SO much. A lot has happened while I have been here. New friendships made and and ended. I just got laid off my job last week. New friendships made and ended as well. I am moving. I am nervous since I have lived on my own for almost 3 years, but it is the right thing for me to do at this point in my life. I have gained so much independence, that sometimes it is scary to think about relying other people.
Job interview yesterday went well and the second interview today went good as well. Hopefully will hear something more today or tomorrow about the next step.
It is time for my next adventure in this life though and I am looking forward to it. Are you coming along with me?

1-19-09 Permanent

Sat, 14 Mar 2009 02:26:35 -0400

Is this the moment where
I look you in the eye?
Forgive my
broken promise that you..ll never see me cry
And everything
It will surely change
Even if I tell you I won..t go away today

Will you think that you..re all alone
When no one..s there to hold your hand?
And all you know seems so far away
And everything is temporary
Rest your head
I..m permanent

I know he..s living in hell
Every single day
And so I ask, oh God
Is there some way for me to take his place?
And when they say it..s all touch and go
I wish I could make it go away

But still you say
Will you think that you..re all alone
When no one..s there to hold your hand?
When all you know seems so far away
And everything is temporary
Rest your head
I..m permanent
I..m permanent

Is the moment where I look you in the eye?
Forgive my promise that you..ll never see me cry…

1-6-09 New Year

Sat, 14 Mar 2009 02:25:53 -0400

2009! CRAZY! However, I am so very ready! Another chance for change, growth, health, love, happiness, peace, etc…and out with toxic, draining, negativity, games, lies, sadness, war etc.

A quick recap is in order I think…

Jan 08-was kind of quiet…but it picked up for sure!

Feb-my sister & Mike moved into their house surprised everyone by having the moving done already and just made it a housewarming party! My neighbors moved the following weekend. I miss them.

Mar-started my new job on St. Patrick’s day at AIMCO!

Apr-3rd annual Chicks Weekend! Had a wonderful time with the girls in Rockaway Beach again.

May-Got my first 2 cavaties! It was tramatic for a day. LOL! Other sister got married in Vegas, Camp Awesome camping trip at Cape Lookout!

Jun-actually got to spend Father’s day with our dad! Was a short but very sweet weekend with him. Hoping for more times like that.

Jul-license renewal hell, happy birthday to me, reconnected with a good friend from high school and finding out she was moving to FL in a couple weeks, and a (half of us) Camp Awesome camping trip at Trask River.

Aug-busiest birthday month EVER! it is a good thing I get along with Leo’s that is all I can say! =) Puppy/house sat for my sister over Labor day weekend.

Sep-met my new best friend!

Oct-mourned not being able to see Celine, friends had their second child, and a fun Halloween party at my sister’s!

Nov-got to meet brother in law’s dad & step mom, trip to Spokane with my sister to see Jeff Dunham, and nicest Thanksgiving!

Dec-3 Christmas parties, Becka & Val baby shower, WE ACTUALLY GOT FEET OF THE MOST AMAZING SNOW EVER!, missed Goings’ gift stealing party though, very sweet Christmas, Val had Alexis, and a pretty quiet New Year’s Eve.

WOW! Time sure does fly and a lot happens in a year! I am ready 2009, bring on what you have in store for me!

11-21-08 Dreams v.s. Nightmares?

Sat, 14 Mar 2009 02:25:14 -0400

ok…I truly would like to meet someone that knows what the heck our dreams are supposed to mean…do they exist? I mean REALLY exist? How can we be sure that they know what MY dreams mean?

I had 2 very opposite and confusing dreams last night. I usually have a few a month that I remember. Some I can still remember. Some easily forgotten. Some that just stick with me for a little bit until I finally give up trying to figure out what it meant. They can be disturbing though. No I didn’t have anything to eat right before bed or any of the old wives tales about WHY we dream.

First dream: I was sitting at work and Natalie brought me flowers in a vase that had just been delivered. Not roses or anything extravagant, but none the less beautiful. The card was very simple and sweet as could be. No name was given. The card read “You deserve the world. Will you let me at least try to give it to you?” I looked up at her and just smiled and was a little teary eyed. I had no idea who they were from, but was very touched.

ok, really? what does THAT mean?

Second dream: I wake up in a dirty poorly lit hosptial room with the lights flickering. Straight out of a horror movie here. I am breathing fast and am extremely panicked and scared. I feel pain in my chest and look down to find a single wire coming out near my heart. That single wire is connected to a little plastic box that is similar to a garage door opener. Out of the bottom of that box were several different colored wires that were connected to a huge electrical box that was as big and as heavy as one of those cement blocks they use under decking for support. I look next to me and there is a single piece of paper with directions on it. VERY lame directions I might add! “You must not pull the wire out of your chest or you will die” “You must always carry both electrical boxes with you and not tamper with them” “You must go see so and so and the address provided for further directions”. I won’t bore you with more stupid directions, but seriously it went on and on. I carried that dang box around following what they told me to for what seemed like forever. I felt like I was on a wild goose chase and was never going to get this thing taken care of. I was argueing with someone inside a store when they were trying to convince me to “just pull the wire out”….when it ended.

When I woke up I was breathing fast and my heart was pounding. I was really wishing I had someone to just hold me at that moment, reassure me it was all a dream, and let me relax and fall back asleep.

So,….if anyone knows of a dream expert….please enlighten me! Maybe just enough to get me to stop thinking about them? I am telling myself that tonights sleep will be less eventful in the dream department. Well, unless they are good dreams…then bring them on!

11-8-08 How about you?

Sat, 14 Mar 2009 02:24:24 -0400

What do YOU want/need? Do you know how to get it?

Don’t be afraid to ask for what you want. Don’t be afraid to say what you feel or need. Don’t be afraid to stand up for yourself or speak your mind. Don’t be afraid to admit when you were wrong either. I have learned however, that in order to not be afraid and do these things, we have to feel safe to do so. Whoever you are telling or asking—you have to know that that person cares about your request or feelings. You have to know that they aren’t going to laugh at you or try to make you feel stupid for feeling and sharing it. In fact, they should even appreciate it about you. I truly hope that you feel safe with me.

If you don’t feel safe with a person, if you don’t trust that they have your best interest at heart as well as their own—then don’t. Don’t put yourself in that position that is going to make you feel sorry for saying something and possibly prevent you from saying it or something else to someone else in the future. Just knowing that your feelings are safe with someone is huge. Knowing that person genuinely cares for you and will not judge you. Trusting someone with your heart is huge. You also have to be prepared for what that person is telling you. You have to be able to accept that they might be telling you that you upset them or hurt their feelings. Can you handle that? Can you have a calm and mature conversation/discussion about it? Or I suppose you COULD just throw all caution to the wind and jump! Jump into it with both feet! Be in and feel the moment as if it will not happen again or you may not get the opportunity to do so again. Then when your feet are back on the ground re-evaluate if you need to, learn from it if you need to, and move forward. Have no regrets in life. Take something from every experience and learn from it.

I helped a co-worker today when her car broke down on her lunch. I have roadside assistance with my cell phone and it is worth every penny in my opinion for that sense of security. She was scared, upset, & embarrassed that this happened and I just tried to reassure her that she was not the first person, nor the last in this world that it would happen to. Her boyfriend was at work, they only have one car, and they don’t have family close so she didn’t know who to call but someone at work and could get to her quickly. We were able to laugh about it all once we knew help was on the way and all was back to normal. She said she felt bad for me spending my lunch helping her and was going to owe me big and I told her “No, you don’t. I am glad that I could help you. Please call me anytime and if you get the chance, just pay it forward.”

Why is it SO hard for us to ask? It truly is hard for me to ask for help or tell someone when I need something. Maybe we keep asking/telling the wrong people? I truly believe that actions speak louder than words. Honestly the only reason that I can come up with in my mind is the lack of faith that it will happen or the fear of what will I owe them for doing this for me? We should give from the heart more often in our lives and not wonder what we will get in return for doing so. 2 people that are becoming VERY important to me recently told me “Seriously Jen, I am just a phone call away if you need me.” and while I was sick, “If you need anything, you tell me.” and I believe them. I don’t have any reason not to at this point in my life. What makes them so different from people in my past? I never even felt I could rely on my exes. Has it truly taken me 34 years to find good people in my life? Or have I become TOO independent? We should all know who will be there for us in our time of need. I don’t keep keep score on who owes me. I have always been a giver and will continue to be in my lifetime. It is just what I do. I like to see people happy. I like seeing the look on their face when they are surprised with something I had a part in. I like knowing that I have made someone’s day. If someone wants to do something for me, or can, I just hope that it is because they truly WANT to.

When does it change or do I stop doing for others? When they lie, take advantage of me, betray, steal, or hurt my heart in some way.

10-29-08 Differences

Sat, 14 Mar 2009 02:23:35 -0400

Constantly a work in process we are, right?

If I do not want what you want, please try not to tell me that my want is wrong.

Or if I believe other than you, at least pause before you correct my view.

Or if my emotion is less than yours, or more, given the same circumstances, try not to ask me to feel more strongly or weakly.

Or yet if I act, or fail to act, in the manner of your design for action, let me be.

I do not, for the moment at least, ask you to understand me. That will come only when you are willing to give up changing me into a copy of you.

I may be your spouse, your parent, your offspring, your friend, or your colleague. If you will allow me any of my own wants, or emotions, or beliefs, or actions, then you open yourself, so that some day these ways of mine might not seem so wrong, and might finally appear to you as right—for me. To put up with me is the first step to understanding me. Not that you embrace my ways as right for you, but that you are no longer irritated or disappointed with me for my seeming waywardness. And in understanding me you might come to prize my differences from you, and, far from seeking to change me, preserve and even nurture those differences.

People are different—let’s face it. But the question is how do you “deal” with it? When you meet a new person, are getting to know someone, investing time with someone, are you truly wanting to know, appreciate, be in their company, love THEM? Or is it we are merely looking for someone to fill a void in us, someone to just hang out with, a new best friend, a spouse, etc. This is where things become selfish unfortunately. UNLESS you know how to love and appreciate the ones in your life for who they TRULY are! Embrace and nurture and be sure to remind them WHY they are important to you. Look for the good in someone and the good they are for you, if you can’t find it, then take a minute and ask yourself what they heck you are doing. I am a firm believer in actions speaking louder than words, so go ahead! I challenge you, say something to someone, and then DO something. That “DO” might even just be a followup to the saying something.

I have made a lot of friends over my lifetime from so many different ways. Some I worked with, previously worked with, used to be neighbors, etc. Some who I am still friends with, some who I am not. Some know me better than others, and some even surprise me with how much they know about me. For me, it doesn’t mean that I love them any more or less. Obviously there is more love for my sister let’s say, than a good friend, or a spouse I would obviously have more love for than just a friend, but my point is when I get started…I am in it for life! Is THAT selfish of me? A few of them I can have deep and meaningful conversations with. Some I can just hang out with socially for some fun. Some you just casually check in with once in a blue moon to see how each other is. A few are all of the above. The “best” or most important ones, in my opinion, are the ones that I connect with on a more regular basis.

I know I am different from most people, but I am similar in some ways too with others. I don’t have that need to fill a void. I will not settle for someone, just to have a spouse. I will not be friends with someone, just because that is what THEY need. I will not continue in a relationship if it is not a healthy one. So, does THAT make me selfish? I do not believe so. It is a two way street plain and simple, if you are not getting a healthy and positive dose of goodness from ANY relationship you are in, then you need to move on. Move on.

Make sense? If not, let’s talk about it. Sometimes I get on a roll and the thoughts are faster than the fingers can type so it may appear cryptic, but I assure you, there is no hidden message. Don’t assume things about me.

10-24-08 Hand Appetizer

Sat, 14 Mar 2009 02:22:57 -0400

I have been meaning to post this all week and keep forgetting until I tell someone else about it. The cutest little 4 year old boy EVER was in the store last weekend. I was done with my shift and was getting a few things and he was in line behind me. His mom was at the cashier next to me. She got finished and looked at him and said “I am finished now do you want to come over to this one?” He politely said “No, I am fine.” This caught my attention so I turned around to him and noticed his one bottle of hand sanitizer and his $10. I said to him “Are you sure you don’t want to go over to that line, I might be a few minutes since I am trying to figure out what else to get?” He politely said again “No, I am fine.” He was TOO cute! I asked him if I could give him my free stuffed animal lambie that I was getting for free since he was being so patient. He said “No, I just am gonna get my hand appetizer.” I had to turn around so he didn’t see my smirk. I looked back and said “Are you SURE you don’t want the lambie, you are being SO good?” His mom then tried to convince him to take it so he would have something to snuggle with since the nights were getting colder. He looked at her kind of embarrassed and said “No, I don’t want it.” At this point I noticed he had pink glitter lip gloss on and told him that I liked it and offered to get him THAT. I asked if he wanted something from the new kids line. He politely declined again for it all. He had admitted to another co-worker earlier that he liked to lick the lip gloss.

I could not let this little guy get out of the store without a reward. I became my mission at that point. So, I asked if he smelled our NEW hand appetizers and he said “No” so I grabbed Winter Candy Apple and had him smell it. His face lit up and he said “Mmm” I said “Do you like THAT one?” He grinned shyly and said “Yes.” I said “GREAT!” His mom chuckled and said “I need to teach my kids to take free things more often.” I told her she should be very proud at how they were behaving because we get some kids in the store that sometimes let me tell you, and I love kids, but would love to kick them sometimes. So, anyways at this point big sister notices that he is getting something and she shows an interest in the conversation and I had $10 more in free stuff to pick out and so I asked her if she would like something. She decided to take home the Winter Candy Apple hand soap. Ah! I felt so good! I LOVED that whole interaction with them. I asked him if I could shake his hand after he paid for his item and he did and told him it was very nice to meet him and shook sister’s hand too. She stepped back and then came back and hugged me! I could have died! How sweet!?!?!?! Then he came back to hug me. I almost cried. I am such a sap!

So, they leave and then I finish up my stuff and walk outside. I see they are getting in the car and yell “Be sure to come back and see us again and drive safe!” Little Randall yells back to me “Thanks for my hand appetizer!”

(sigh) made my day…..truly…made my day

10-18-08 It's all about the doodlebug!

Sat, 14 Mar 2009 02:22:25 -0400

YES I am posting a Happy birthday message to my other dog now! =) It wouldn’t be fair if I only did for Mia. Today Baxter is 7 years old! He is my little snuggler and I love his puppy pictures! I really cannot get over how fast time flies! I have a lot of fun with my dogs despite the bills and headache they cause me sometimes. I love them!

10-14-08 Reason, Season, Lifetime

Sat, 14 Mar 2009 02:21:55 -0400

People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime.
When you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that person.

When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually. They may seem like a Godsend and they are. They are there for the reason you need them to be.

Then, without any wrongdoing on your part, that person is gone.
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Sometimes they walk away.
Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand.

What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on.

Some people come into your life for a SEASON, because your turn has come to share, grow or learn.

They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh. They may teach you something you have never done. They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it, it is real, but only for a season.

LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons, things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation.

Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person and put what you have learned to
use in all other relationships and areas of your life.

It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.

THANK YOU for being a part of my life whether you were/are here for a reason, a season or a lifetime.

10-14-08 Ok, I feel old now...

Sat, 14 Mar 2009 02:21:07 -0400

…HAPPY BIRTHDAY to my Mia girl! She is going to be 11 years old tomorrow! She is my little trooper! She has always been totally ok with whatever we are doing, just as long as she is with me. She has been through a lot with me, let me tell ya! I love her! Now if she could only read….

10-5-08 Try my cloud out!

Sat, 14 Mar 2009 02:20:23 -0400

Try my cloud out!

Do you realize how much negativity there is in the world? I mean really, seriously think about it for a minute. It actually saddens me. Don’t get me wrong, I have my moments, I am NOT perfect. However, I thrive on being happy. I CHOOSE happiness and being positive. My address IS Cloud 9 and you are all welcome over anytime!

Over the last year or so, it has been a work in process to literally catch myself engaging in a negative thought. It actually is really cool and fun to acknowledge it myself and then flip it around. But like I said…a work in process…caught myself today. Am I totally contradicting myself with blog even? I don’t feel negative right now, but by writing this, am I giving more power to “it”. I overanalyze things too much sometimes. Another piece of me that is a work in progress.

The saying “misery loves company”, could not be more true. The reason I say that is because even if you float through life with rainbows and butterflies flying above your head, the negative still have a little bit of power. This only angers me. I think it interesting how you could have the best day going and one tiny little thing changes the rest of it for you. Why is that? 90% happy and that small 10% totally obliterated the other portion? HOW DOES THIS HAPPEN? In all logical sense the 90% should win?!

Offering a seat to someone else that needs it more than you? Do you?

Hold the door open for a perfect stranger? Do they for you? Do you thank them?

Asking how someone is doing…do you mean it?

Can I get you anything? What do you need?

Have you ever complimented someone you didn’t know on something?

When you tell someone I love you, do you mean it or has it become just something you are supposed to say?

Do you complete surveys or talk to a manger about service you received for the good as much as the bad?

When you give someone something, is it so that you get something out of it?

So many people are just out to get something free, so they use. They use whatever or whoever so that they can get something in return. If that doesn’t work, they will go even further. Perhaps sue someone for everything and more.

Much like people starving in this world, obviously on a smaller scale, but is it? If more people were happy, would there be as many starving people? That is where it is up to us. I have noticed that the power of one is stronger. When we are happy—only good can flow from us. The more we put out there, the more we get back. I am sure some if not all of you have heard me say that I do not allow myself to get depressed. It is true. If I feel like I am in a funk, I reach out. I want to get out of the house. I want to do something, even if it is to go for a walk. I want to laugh or have a serious conversation with someone. Anything to break that negative feeling of depression. If nobody else is there, then only I can do it. There is only me. It shouldn’t be this way. Everyone should have someone that they KNOW without a doubt that they could call at 2am and that person would pick up the phone. So, I think there should be a code phrase that everyone knows, like 911. Everyone knows that that is serious. No questions asked. So, I am here to tell each and everyone of you that I am that person should you need to call at 2 am or whenever. Just tell me “I need you” and I will make myself available. If you don’t already have my number, then email me and you will have it.

I better end this or I could go on all night.

Seriously though….think about it….because YOU are the only one that has the power to help you. Everyone else is your support through it. You have to be true to your integrity of who you are and that is what will shine from your light within. Truth always wins.

9-25-08 He...

Sat, 14 Mar 2009 02:19:31 -0400

He…

…looks at me across a crowded room and our eyes meet and we smile.

…helps me teach our children how to become wonderful people.

…takes care of me when I am sick.

…looks forward to playing Santa with me for the kids on Christmas Eve.

…enjoys a family outing going out to pick out our Christmas tree and cut it down.

…remembers at the right time when I least expect it to surprise me when I have said

“Oh I wish/want this or that” or “wouldn’t it be nice if we had one of those” etc.

…gives the best massages.

…is found out in the garage tinkering on a project or fixing one of the kids’ toys.

…is very serious when he needs to be but can make me laugh like nobody else.

…wipes away my tears.

…is never rude, disrespectful, cruel, or hurtful.

…enjoys being outdoors.

…craves knowledge, family time, and our time alone.

…is damn sexy to me.

…watches me as I am sleeping.

…has a passion with me that cannot be stopped.

…is affectionate in front of everyone, including the kids.

…scrapes my windows for me on an icy morning.

…calls just to say he loves me or needed to hear my voice.

…shows an interest and cares about my friends and family as well as his own.

…sends or brings home flowers just because.

…wants never to let me go once he has me in his arms.

…kisses like nobody’s business.

…enjoys a game, dinner, or movie with friends once in awhile.

…gets up with the kids in the middle of the night to let me sleep when I really need it.

…walks with me and is proud to have me next to him.

…enjoys our endless conversations about nothing and everything.

…is not selfish and takes nobody for granted.

…surprises me at work for a lunch date, just because.

…makes me get lost when I look into his eyes.

…blushes when I get school girl googly-eyed over him.

…believes that a variety of music is a must in life.

…makes me blush.

…has a glass of wine and dinner waiting for me when I get home on occasion.

…makes sure my gas tank is not on empty when done using my car.

…helps a stray animal find its way home.

…keeps the home fires burning and makes the biggest campfires ever.

…asks what he can do to help if I am preoccupied with something.

…never forgets a birthday, our anniversary, or holiday.

…brags about me to his friends and family.

…wants the kind of love that movies and songs are made for.

…is respectful, polite, flirty, courteous, responsible, and doesn’t care who knows it.

…cuddles on the couch with me while we watch a movie or just want to have quiet time.

…doesn’t mind when I say “Hunny, can you reach that for me please?”

…he is not shallow.

…enjoys his guy time and agrees that my girl time is important too.

…is my ultimate protector.

…will wake me gently if I fall asleep on the couch and it is time for bed.

…will happily kill spiders and just shakes his head at how ridiculous I am to be afraid.

…holds me closer for scary movies.

…watches a chick flick with me as I will watch guy movies with him.

…loves sports.

…calls me baby.

…cradles my face in his hands when he kisses me.

…can’t wait to tell me about his day or let me rescue him from a bad one.

…loves surprises and loves to surprise others.

…is positive, believes in being proactive, & doesn’t dwell on things he cannot change.

…believes that it takes work to have a healthy relationship.

…doesn’t believe in going to bed angry.

…is honest, reliable, attentive, & has a big heart.

…does not do drugs.

…loves life and embraces each new day as another chance to do good.

…remembers to be grateful.

…appreciates a deep conversation once in awhile.

…is not afraid to say “I am sorry.”

…laughs when I am silly.

…understands my secret crush on Matthew McConaughey.

…likes candles.

…can’t wait to come home to me and our life at the end of the day.

…doesn’t like to complain.

…believes that he is in charge of the choices he makes in life.

…can appreciate a good joke.

…is not the jealous type.

…loves how excited I get over snow and silly little things that make me happy.

…will dance with me.

…loves the beach.

…knows how important it is to cherish the ones you love.

…makes me happy to call him mine.

…is a big kid at heart.

…gets touched by the little/simple things in life.

…is waiting for me to find him.

…and maybe just a few more things that I have forgotten at the moment…………..

…will lay with me in the grass to watch the clouds roll by or star gaze.

…will wake me to join him & watch the sun rise.

…will happily engage in a water fight while washing our cars.

…knows how to prepare my cup of coffee just right.

…can ask me anything.

…is the bravest man I know.

…can think of nobody else he wants to spend his life with.

…knows just what I need or what I might be thinking—sometimes before I may know.

…isn’t ashamed to share his fears, dreams, secrets, doubts, or plans with me.

…pulls me back to him for one more kiss.

…is comfortable telling me what his heart is feeling exposing that soft side of him because he knows that he is safe with me.

…understands the passion felt in a good song.

…asks me how I am.

…agreess that the honeymoon stage is never over.

…truly needs me.

…would jump into a big pile of leaves even if it means the pile just got messed up.

…can hop in the car and take a road trip anywhere, or plan something ahead of time.

…isn’t afraid to ask for or protect what is his.

…has no doubt that he means the world to me.

Transferring blogs

Sat, 14 Mar 2009 02:18:19 -0400

I want to apologize now for the massive amount of posting about to occur. I would like to have this blog be my archive and I should have been posting here instead of Myspace or both…but whatever. So, the title of the posts include the dates they were done. I promise to be more faithful to the blog my sister built for me. Thanks for following me!

Roller coaster ride anyone?

Wed, 17 Sep 2008 22:17:45 -0400

Life sure is full of twists and turns….some good, some bad, some happy, some sad….
*Have become good friends with Star since she came in as a customer into BBW.
=)
*Losing weight, slowly but surely…feels good! Finally off that dang plateau.
=)
*Have become close friends with girls at work(both jobs) this summer.
=)
*Lost an old co-worker just before labor day…younger than me very sad.
=(
*Dated a loser for almost a month…glad that part of my life is over.
=}
*My sister bought our tickets today to see Jeff Dunham in November…CAN’T WAIT! =)
*Just found out tonight that another co-worker from the same job died last night. Weird connection is he was with the previous mentioned above co-worker when he passed.
=(
*Found out today Baxter will be ok….no signs of cancer, calcium level came back lower than last time.
=)
*Andrea goes back to K Falls for school in a little over a week! =( Will miss her!

Back I go to my chores.

I have my own song now...

Fri, 05 Sep 2008 16:51:29 -0400

my co-worker/friend Natalia wrote me a song yesterday. I love it! We are still trying to work out the music for it, but give us some time.

She walks around counting her thoughts

She’s a tough girl making her demands with everything she fought

Punching the way through making her day

Waiting for the freedom on a Friday

Serious Jen when she’s not joking around

Getting the bills paid, laughing without a sound

Serious Jen got to the point with her handy pen

I’m gonna count to the number ten.

She’s so S-S-S-Serious

She’s so S-S-S-Serious Jen

Hiding the Tiki, she’s so clever

Flow of water, makes you wanna pull the lever

Bringing down the house, full of sass

She’s like Blondie, heart of glass

Serious Jen when she’s not joking around

Getting the bills paid, laughing without a sound

Serious Jen got to the point with her handy pen

I’m gonna count to the number ten.

She’s so S-S-S-Serious

She’s so S-S-S-Serious Jen

"Take all of your wasted honor Every little past frustration Take all of your so called..."

Thu, 14 Aug 2008 23:36:07 -0400

“

Take all of your wasted honor
Every little past frustration
Take all of your so called problems
Better put ‘em in quotations

Say what ya need to say

Walking like a one man army
Fighting with the shadows in your head
Livin’ up the same old moment
Knowin’ you’d be better off instead

If you could only…say what ya need to say

Have no fear for giving in
Have no fear for giving over
You better know that in the end
It’s better to say too much, than never to say what you need to say again

Even if your hands are shaking
And your faith is broken
Even as the eyes are closing
Do it with a heart wide open

Say what you need to say
Say what you need to say

I love this song….=)

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One more because this was hilarious…Shante calls it a...

Thu, 14 Aug 2008 23:21:59 -0400

One more because this was hilarious…Shante calls it a “White Castle Hot Dog”…hot dog on half of a hamburger bun…and loaded obviously! LOL!

sorry….I tried to warn you

Thu, 14 Aug 2008 23:20:49 -0400

sorry….I tried to warn you

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Thu, 14 Aug 2008 23:20:23 -0400

ok clearly don’t know what I am doing here and need some...

Thu, 14 Aug 2008 23:19:59 -0400

ok clearly don’t know what I am doing here and need some lessons on posting cool little click here linky links….LOL